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Hemp, miracle skin product!

Just a quick update post, and two products I have been loving!!

So I haven’t been this happy in a long time, I’ve had great news, last week I had a joint appointment with my Dermatologist & Rheumatologist and I can finally say in 5 months time I will be officially off of steroids! HELL YEAH!!!! You have no idea how excited I am about this, it’s been a long time coming, plus that means I can get my pre-steroid body back, having had my weight fluctuate like crazy over the past few months (from jumping up & down doses), oh it’s going to be so good, however I am certainly not looking forward to the withdrawal symptoms, but never mind.

My dermatologist thinks that also in this time my skin will completely clear up, which will be a god send as it has been something that has been causing me lots of problems, now don’t get me wrong it has already cleared up tremendously and what remains most now is scarring, but that should be gone soon, I’ve been using two different hemp products and I would recommend these as they are amazing!


 Hemp Soap On A Rope £6.50



Amir Hemp Seed Oil Moisturizer, I bought this in TKMAXX for around £7 but you can order it from Amazon US for around $40 which I will be doing when mine runs out because it is that good! 

Those two products are so worth the money, highly recommend 5*

So that’s it just a quick update post, what skin products would you recommend?


January 1st

So that’s it then…

The festive season has come and gone, and I feel 100lbs heavier but hey ho I enjoyed myself, looking back at 2016 and it hasn’t been that bad for me personally, I mean the grim reaper has definitely done it’s rounds and we have lost so many talented and inspirational people this year, and Brexit happened, and trump won, so regardless of everything else,  2016 will go down as one of the worst years. EVER!!!!

But what has happened for me this year?

Well… I finally got free of a long term toxic relationship and have cut ties with other people that were not benefiting my life, I started to write a children’s book, which I don’t have a lot left to do on, and I finally got a medical diagnosis after 2-3 years of suffering, so I suppose it cant be all that bad, well apart from the 49 tablets I have to take weekly, the fortnightly blood tests and other surgical procedures I have to endure this year, but the biggest thing I’ve learned from last year is… How fucking strong I am… emotionally.

I have personally endured so much shit in the past few years and I’m still going, stronger than ever, I know I sound like I’m blowing smoke up my own ass, but it honestly hit me last year, I can deal with a lot of shit and move on. Loosing one of my childhood friends due to suicide bought on by depression might have something to do with this realisation, God bless her soul. But last year has been about finding that inner strength and continuing.

I must admit though I have had a rather laid back approach to friendships last year, but saying that a friendship that I held so very dearly was destroyed and rebuilt last year, so that’s all good, and I must try harder this year, although we can go for weeks without talking then meet up and its like we never spent time apart.

After a year of not working I cant wait to start working again this year, its been far too long, and I need to start making decent money, so I can afford to actually do things, whilst saving, although I’ve realised I am absolutely crap at maths. Each month when I budget out my money for the month. come the end I always have more left than I thought I would, I suppose that’s not necessarily something to complain about, but it can be very confusing!

I’m not the type of person to make resolutions, but if I have to they would be..

( Pretty much all medical related haha)

1~Keep my weight under control, (Steroids are playing havoc with my body)

2~Take better care of myself internal and external ( Again bloody Dermatomyositis playing havoc)

3~Keep a daily journal just to keep check on everything.

4~Have at least two weekends away somewhere in Europe.

5~Finally buy a car.

6~Start work again.

7~And last but not least push myself to do something different.

Yay… seven resolutions, pretty apt seen as seven is my favourite number! Lets hope 2017 is an amazing year, I think we all deserve it after this one!

What do you want in 2017? What are your resolutions?





Two hours to go…

The new year is just two hours away and as I’m sat alone at home, with nothing to do or nowhere to go, I can’t help but feel a deep pang of lonliness, but the rational side of my brain is saying is it really that bad? This time last year I had already gone out for dinner with my friends and we were just about to get ready to go out to a club, in all honesty that’s all I want to remember of last new year, the sad truth is that night… Once we arrived in town, my boyfriend at the time spent the majority of the night ignoring me and chatting up other girls, only talking to me to either embarrass me or insult me infront of other people, and my best friend ended the night in tears, because the whole night had a huge cloud of awkwardness and well complete crapness hanging over it, and it only got worse, with the envitabilty of alcohol being abused and then arguments happened. So all in all it was a rather large shit show. The friends I spent that night with bar 3 are all out of my life now, vast reasonings behind each and everyone of them, but I honestly don’t think I would change it, I’ve grown a lot over this year and feel more at peace now with being alone and not relying on anyone anymore.

So is me being on my own tonight that much of an issue? Because I know I never want to relive that night again! 

What are your plans for tonight? I think I’m just gonna have a glass of wine and watch some crap on the telly. 

Happy new year! 😊🥂


Having a proper problem trying to figure out where I want to go on holiday next year, already have one booked for my 23rd, but feel like I need to book another one, as your 20’s are suppose to be about travelling aren’t they? I don’t understand where people my age get the money from to go and travel the world?! Like seriously? Where? And can I have some? 

I seriously want to go back to Norway! Hands down one of the most beautiful places I’ve ever been! 

Like honestly can you get anymore picturesque than that? 😍 

Where do you have booked to go next year?